Sunday, November 15, 2009

My first passion

Me being silly with my Trumpet

Music has always been one of my passions, and has been in my family for many generations. at least on my step-dad's side of the family anyhow. My mom i don't think ever tried to play an instrument in her life and my biological father lets just say was more of a jock. Non the less he is where i got my love for rock! I have been listening to rock music of all kinds since i was born and it still is one of my favorite styles to listen to. But threw my step-dad i learned to branch out and learn to appreciate all kinds of music. the power it has to move people and take them away to what ever world there mind can make even if at first we don't like what we hear listen to what the artist is trying to make us feel. That's what music is one of the greatest forms of art in this world it has so much power and can create so many different emotions and is (in my opinion) the earliest form of art that we as humans created. We can see this in the simplest of people there is music, it might not be to the level that we can but every culture has its own style even if we cant understand each other threw language we can understand the emotions of music. Is it so hard to imagine our ancestors hitting sticks together in a steady beat. This is the first forms of music how would it be to go back in time and listen to the first song ever made! what would it sound like? what would the song tell us about the people? and what kind of emotion would they try to stir in us?
I started my own music journey by playing my dad's Clarinet passed down for many generations. I played it for about 4 years and i did fairly well i was one of the first chairs in the band but i didn't feel the passion for it like my dad told me i should feel when i really get into it i felt that there was something missing something ells waiting for me. Then late in my 7th grade year my best friend at the time invited me over to his house like he always did but this time rather then play video games or sneak onto the golf coarse by his house he wants to practice our songs from school. we had a concert coming up in a few weeks so he thought it would be fun. of coarse i had heard the trumpet played many times but always in a group or in a band. never had i heard it by itself. i remember how beautiful it was and i knew that instant that the trumpet was right for me! I went home and bashfully asked my parents if in the following school year i could make the change at first they were skeptical i don't think my dad was happy at all. he told me how hard it would be to start all over again and i would be about 4-5 years behind most trumpet players my age. i didn't care this was my calling.
The next year i started in beginning band...again! taking it one step at a time yet trying to progress as fast as i could to play catch up. that year i met my best friend also a beginning trumpet player. time passed and i made it to the concert band (the highest one) the next year most people didn't think i could get that far in one year but i made it happen.
In high school a friend of mine asked me to go to marching band with him just to try it out. it was an after school program and at first i had no desire to join but being the push over i am i got sucked into it and am i glad i did! For my birthday my sophomore year i got the best gift my parents ever gave me, it was a professional model Yamaha silver trumpet! (My first love) the shine was amazing the silver finish perfectly reflecting my face, the keys so smooth like a hot knife threw butter it was perfect! to give it my own personal feel i added a leather strap around the keys this was MINE. It sounds stupid i know but when you find YOUR instrument you can feel like there is a soul in it, like another person waiting and wanting and when we play together the heavens open and she made the most beautiful sound. I don't feel like i ever played her no i think more and more that threw me she sang!
In the end we made it to first chair in the concert band, 3 years of marching band (senior year trumpet section leader), jazz band 1, early morning symphony, the high school musical pit orchestra, and vice president of the band. in all i think my senior year i was in 5 band classes. but we grow up try to go to college, go to work, and start a family and i haven't played her since. At time i want to more then anything but fear gets the best of me. After so long part of me if afraid that ill never get the sound and music i want ever again. Am i better off starting again and trying to working my way up again or to remember the glory days and remember how great we used to be?

Music is what feelings sound like
-author unknown

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Intro

Me my senior year in High School


I am nothing more then an average man. I am no hero, nothing spectacular about my life for the world to take notice, I work, I live, and I love. I am a member of "The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints" Mormon. I grew up in a complicated battle between parents which as a child can be hard and confusing, both had there best intentions but you can see ho as a kid it can feel like you are thrown around a lot. I grew up for a Deep love for Music of all kinds (except Gangster rap and country) i played in the band in school, I would sing or whistle whenever i could (as long as no one could hear) and if friends where busy and couldn't get together i would just stay in my room and listen to music until dinner and bed time. I am a very shy and quiet person but i stand up for people that are under me or that i feel i need to watch over some have often told me I'm the dad they thought they got away from or older brother for that matter. I graduated High School and soon after knew who i would spend the rest of forever with. We started dating and soon found ourselves in love and where married just over a year later. I was 19 she was 18 People said we were crazy but we didn't listen we just wanted to be together that was all we needed. nine months later we found out that we would be parents! Both of us were shocked but we have the best little boy we could ever pray for. I tried the college life 2 times and both ended shortly to say the least. we lived pretty basic lives her watching over our son me going to work to barley make the bills and but food on the table. after trying to decide what we where going to do with our lives we decided that it might be best for me to join the NAVY. I joined and went to boot camp, went threw about 3 schools and finally at last graduated Gunners Mate "A" school. My official Rank and title is GM SN Bushman, Joshua (I love putting GM SN before my name ) now i am just waiting for Orders to post so i can go be with my wife and son again. I'm sorry for the vagueness of my first blog most are just subjects that i wish to go into further detail later as i tell you about my life. Do i care if someone reads these... Meh its just nice to put my thoughts and stories down.



Through Power, I gain Victory.
Through Victory, My Chains are Broken.

-Excerpt from the Sith code